I am not speaking about a person imparticular. This is a general some of wats been happening in the community.
I don not believe i am Popular honestly idk wat the definition really is.
Ok so I'm finally just dun with listening to this one sided story of how " popular Artist" get all the love and " popular artist" act like their all high and mighty. Let me speak to you from the eyes of said "popularity"
First of all You are not being ignored. Stop thinking a well known artist you comment or note is ignoring you because they do not like you. Everyone is special in their own way. There's no one on this earth like you. However You are not the Only one on this earth now are u? You guys seen my inbox. Its a mess. Due to not deleting un-needed things and hoarding stuff i still find important. And im not the only person whos inbox looks that way. Sure we may see your note, or your comment. Alot of times we put things to the side to get back to and because our mind is on a constant go we cant help if we forget. Where humans. But sometimes i dont think were considered to be...
I have a short attention span! And im not ashamed to say I do. And sometimes in just not in that sort of mood to type up a respond because i can't find the right way to word things. Maybe i had a bad day? Maybe in physically sick? Maybe my mind is troubled and i would like a " hello" vs an " Do u want to rp". Now i'm not saying i'm not open to them. But if im not drawn in or have a will to go on and be creative with my writing then just put me in jail now.
There was a incident that happen to me last night where i was caught between to friends. And an opinion i know cannot be truth since the other person was one i am close to just as i am close to them.
Do you not understand how much the "popularity" statement really hurts? To know that just because im having a hard time keeping up with everything im see to be "unfair, High above myself, overpowered" This words are the last things i would say to describe myself. I'm not a talkitive person. Matter fact this morning my mother said i had a "rude tone" just because i wasn't speaking much to her on my way to school. When i reality i was simply to tired trying to stay awake.
Put your self in my shoes. If you want my place lordy take it. I've always said i'd be happy with just my friends and that statement still stands. Now i'm not making this journal because i'm trying to be a peacemaker. I'm providing the side of the story That is not considered. All i ask for is questions to help develop my Ocs. From when i started to where i am it has always been that way. You wanna here a secret u guys?
Im terrified of sending Questions and Rps' sometime because i feel i've asked something dumb, Or my grammar to to bad to even consider talking to those i admire. Sometimes i debate on whether or not i should get on Skype. I don't want to feel like a pest to others. Like i said im not talkitive unless in comfortable with you. And if i'm like that in RL then hows online any differ? There are admins like that. There not ignoring you, Maybe they just don't know how to respond to you?
I know what being ignored feels like. I know what it is like to be judged and To judge. Which is why i sometimes choose to be quiet. Because opening my mouth that either destroyed or made may of my friendships awkward. Ive been told a statement that made me simply Refuse to draw a certain Oc. And over all im just down because im wasting away days i could be posting to days im just moping around.
But you dont know that side of me do u?
All that is seen is a good artist thats to "popular" for the rest of us right...
Peace out im dun.
